I somehow made it to 40 years old and over a decade in children’s ministry without ever changing a diaper. Remember Rachel on Friends, the “baby dummy”? She’s a genius in my book…
Several weeks ago, we asked for your prayers as we embark on the path towards surrogacy and starting a family. Since then, God has moved in ways that have absolutely blown my mind! You won’t believe what He has been up to in just a few short weeks…
To close out 2020, we want to share some exciting Gorman news!
If you know me or my story, you may know that I was diagnosed with stage 3 ER/PR+ breast cancer in 2018. The news was shocking and devastating. And it came at a time when my husband, Matt, and I had been trying, unsuccessfully, to start our family. The diagnosis brought fear, anxiety, grief, and chaos to…
I just realized my last “health update” post was all the way back in February. Which, given the current state of the world, seems like decades ago. On the other hand, I’m pretty excited there hasn’t been anything eventful enough in my life to warrant another “health update” blog post!
Fortunately, this one isn’t super dramatic either, but it’s at least blog-worthy. In my new, post-cancer life that consists of continuing treatments to keep cancer far, far away, the medications I’m on consist of putting me into early menopause so my body makes as little estrogen as possible. I also continue to be on a chemotherapy drug that further lowers any remaining estrogen levels. I suppose it’s not a huge deal to go through menopause…I mean, every woman does it at some point, why not continue my life-long quest to over-achieve and be first in this category as well? However, the accompanying chemo drug hasn’t been very fun and frankly, we haven’t had much success in managing the side effects very well. I won’t bore you with the details, but since we started this treatment at the beginning of the year, I’m now taking at least six additional drugs to try to deal with the side effects and attempt to feel like a normal person, and it’s still just not happening.
It’s a strange place to be, because the longer I can continue this treatment, the lower my chances of recurrence will be. So naturally, why wouldn’t I do everything possible to get that best chance (remember that over-achiever?) But I also yearn for a “normal” life, a life I can enjoy because I fought so hard to get it back. So we had some very honest and helpful conversations with my oncologist and we are switching things up. I started a different medication about two weeks ago and good news…I am already feeling so much better! I’m sleeping again for the first time since I was diagnosed, the all-over chronic bone pain is subsiding and I don’t walk with a limp anymore, and I overall just feel better about myself. There are still several side effects I’d like to see reduced as we continue on this journey, but I’m already down to 4 extra medications instead of 6 so in the last two weeks, which is a pretty huge win! And the recurrence rate on this new medication is only a few percentage points more than the previous one, so the difference is slight and the benefit is great. That being said, this is a treatment that will continue for the next 10 years so when you think of it, I would appreciate your continuing prayers for continued lessened side effects as well as never seeing cancer rear it’s ugly head again!
2 Corinthians 12:9 says “My grace is sufficient for you, for my power is made perfect in weakness.” My body may not be getting more perfect as I journey through this life, but His power in me is. To be honest, I don’t have what it takes to live this life, not even the easy parts. But He does. He has brought me through this far, and He’s not giving up on me now!
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In the continuing saga of “Crys Beats Cancer”, the new year brings new treatments to keep all things cancer far away from all things Gorman.
One thing I didn’t know prior to being diagnosed is that all cancer is not the same; I thought cancer was cancer. I mean, I knew there were different kinds of cancer like breast cancer, colon cancer, lung cancer, that sort of thing. But…
Merry Christmas everyone! I continue to find myself overwhelmed with thankfulness and gratitude over these last few weeks, as so many little things remind me of where I was and what I was doing this time last year. This time last year I was still going through chemo, I was missing my hair and my health, and still facing months of radiation and surgeries ahead. Somehow it seems like just…
