Today’s Results

This morning included a minor emotional rollercoaster; as we arrived for our appointment to get the results of last week’s tests, we were told “the doctor is not in the office this week, someone should have called you to reschedule”.

Well that was not one of the several thousand possible outcomes I had played out in my head in advance of today.

I weighed my options…I’ve waited a week and today is supposed to be the day I find out whether or not the cancer has come back. If the results are good, I want to know ASAP. But if they are not good, do I really want to know today and not be able speak with my doctor about it until next week? Would it be better to just wait and reschedule?
The girl at the front desk offered to let me speak with an assistant just to hear the results and then schedule a follow up with the doctor when she is back in town.

While fear is allowed in the scary moments of life, it does not get to dictate my actions so I said yes, let’s hear the results because we know in faith they are going to be good anyway, so there’s nothing to worry about!

The assistant arrived and sat next to us and apologized for the mix up with the schedule. “Yeah yeah, hurry up and tell me what the results are and tell me if my life is about to change again” I replied…in my head.
She continued “I’ve looked over your scans, and there is no evidence of cancer.”

So there you have it! One year and a few months after this journey began, the first “check up” is free and clear! Here’s to a lifetime of many more! (But maybe without the drama next time?)

“Lord my God, I called to you for help and you healed me…you turned my wailing into dancing; you removed my sackcloth and clothed me with joy, that my heart may sing your praises and not be silent.” Psalm 30