In my last update, I told you we had a surgery scheduled for May 2. Since then, God has re-directed a few things in the eleventh hour!
I should start by saying we have been working with a very skilled doctor, but throughout this process there have been a few things I’ve been uncomfortable with, and some things I didn’t understand about my treatment. But we went with it, because we trusted her skill.
Also during this process, we’d been seeking an appointment with another doctor for a 2nd opinion. Not with the intention of looking for an alternate doctor, but just for reassurance that the steps we are taking are the right ones. But we had such a hard time getting an appointment anywhere, we thought we may just have to do without.
Which brings you to the present – last week we were able to get an appointment and visited a new doctor in Dallas for the coveted second opinion.
We. Loved. This. Doctor.
From the second she introduced herself, her bedside manner was phenomenal. But not only that, she explained the same diagnosis we’d heard a hundred times, but many of the things that didn’t make sense before were suddenly easy to understand. We both left that appointment feeling like God was nudging us to switch to this doctor.
But it wasn’t so easy, doing so would be a HUGE leap of faith…for one, I have a pre-op appointment with my current doc in a matter of days. Second, calling off the May 2nd appointment means starting from the beginning…new plastic surgeon appointments, new oncologist appointments, the whole exhausting nine yards all over again. It also means delaying surgery, which I worry is risky – how much longer must this thing inside of me be allowed to continue to grow and potentially spread? Not to mention, what do we even know about this new doc? We no longer have the luxury of time to research and find out about her skill…what if we are trading bedside manner for skill? And hello…she’s in DALLAS. I don’t even know what lies east of the airport, are we really driving all the way to Dallas for all these appointments?
On paper, it doesn’t make sense. But…we don’t serve a paper God. We serve an all-knowing God who loves me and wants the absolute best for me. If this move is truly led by Him, then all those details and questions will also be worked out by Him.
So…we prayed, we sought, and the more we thought about it, the more it seemed right. So we’re making the move. And here we are, back at the beginning again. We have appointments all this week with the new team, and barring anything surprising with those meetings, we’ll be setting a new surgery date soon with the new doc.
This new doc…who, by the way, is a Disney fanatic, how is that not a sign from God 😉 …has already confirmed that we should be able to get a new surgery date fairly soon so we’ll only be postponing by maybe a few weeks. Aforementioned detail #367 already taken care of.
So, to sum up this ridiculously long post (congratulations if you are still reading), we’ll keep you posted on the new surgery date, and for the next few days here’s a our prayer points;
1) Pray for our appointments on Tuesday and Wednesday, that we love the whole team just as much as the new doc and that God will continue to confirm and provide His peace that this is the right decision.
2) Complete healing.
3) That God will use this story in big ways for His kingdom, even now before it’s even finished being written.
Thanks again for all your prayers and support, they keep us going!
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