Well I haven’t posted any updates since I finished treatments in March, mostly because I’ve kindof enjoyed pretending like I’m the kind of person who doesn’t need to post Caring Bridge updates. But I probably owe you an update and frankly, I selfishly want to ask for your prayers again!
Since March, I’ve begun a new “maintenance” treatment schedule, which includes an oral chemotherapy that I’ll be on for a long time. While the side effects have been blessedly minimal and it does not cause hair loss, I’m still adjusting to this and I find myself tired all the time. But I’m expecting this to eventually subside because, let’s face it, I’ve got some Spartan races to get back to. 😉
I would covet your prayers because I have doctor appointments almost every day this week; it’s time for the annual barrage of tests to make sure nothing is trying to come back. Then I have an appointment next Wednesday to hear the results of everything where, Lord willing, we will hear that everything is clear!
While I went through all these tests last year, this is the first time I am facing it on the other side. Last year, I already knew I had cancer when I went through all this. This year, I’ve gone through the fire and I’ve seen the battle, and I don’t want to hear anything that’s going to tell me I have to go back into it again. It’s a whole different feeling this time around.
The fear of this disease coming back is real, and the little voice in my head still asks “what if”.
I cling to the peace and comfort that God has already given and will continue to provide through all of this, and I trust that He has given me enough strength for today. And when tomorrow comes, He will give me enough strength for tomorrow. So until then I try to simply focus on the present and not stress about the things I cannot control!
So thank you for your prayers between now and next Wednesday and for believing with me for a good report!
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